Hilaria Baldwin has taken to social media to share a heartbreaking account of her recent miscarriage four months into pregnancy earlier this month.
"(I) was so excited to have my scan and see my daughter. I was so nervous all day. Perhaps it was some sort of knowing what was going to come or evidence that pregnancy after loss is stressful," she wrote on her Instagram Story.
"I lay on the table and the technician put the sonogram on… and we discovered immediately that my baby was lifeless. It was one of the worst feelings."
Hilaria says it is "cathartic" to share the parts of her life that she previously kept hidden from the public.
The wife of Alec, 61, and mum to their four children, Carmen, six, Rafael, four, Leonardo, three, and Romeo, 17 months says it helps her to share her sadness.
The yoga instructor, 35, posted a heartbreaking photo in hospital after her surgery following her daughter's miscarriage.
Eyes swollen from crying, groggy from anesthesia, crampy from the surgery...but I made it and I want you to know that I’m physically ok. I’m grateful for my family, friends, doctors and nurses, and all of you who have held my hand through this difficult time. You have no idea how much this means to me. One foot in front of the other...now I begin the healing journey ❤️
She had her first miscarriage in April, sharing the event with her followers as it was happening. At the time she vowed that if she was pregnant again, she would be revealing the news early.
"I want to share with you that I am most likely experiencing a miscarriage," she wrote. "I always promised myself that if I were to get pregnant again, I would share the news with you guys pretty early, even if that means suffering a public loss. I have always been so open with you all about my family, fitness, pregnancies … and I don't want to keep this from you, just because it isn't as positive and shiny as the rest."
True to her word, she shared her happy news in September, and a week later revealed the baby would be a girl. She regularly shared bump photos with her followers.
"I have no shame or embarrassment with this experience. I want to be a part of the effort to normalise miscarriage and remove the stigma from it," she wrote at the time.
This week she thanked her supporters.
"I have been so lucky to receive such love and support from my friends, family and you. One of the elements of all of this that has been amazing is how many of you shared with me that you have experienced something similar. Whether that be miscarriage, still birth, chemical pregnancy, infertility," she wrote in a Story.
She continued in another Story about why she opens up to the world about her pregnancy and loss journeys.
"It's been an interesting experience being a part of this effort of removing stigma about pregnancy difficulties and loss. Opening up and sharing began as protective measures against industries attempting to monetise elements of my life," she said. "However, it ended up in a great lesson for me on how cathartic it is to share."