'I have a very dark side': Adele opens up about depression battle before and after son's birth

The 10-time Grammy winner said she had always been drawn to sad music.
The 10-time Grammy winner said she had always been drawn to sad music.  Photo: Getty Images

Adele suffered from postnatal depression after the birth of her son and had undergone therapy when younger for what she called her "very dark side".

The British singer, who is nearing the end of a 10-month tour to mark her album 25, told Vanity Fair in an interview for its December cover story published on its website on Monday that she would be happy if she never had to tour again.

"I'd still like to make records, but I'd be fine if I never heard (the applause) again. I'm on tour simply to see everyone who's been so supportive. I don't care about money," Adele, 28, was quoted as saying.

The 10-time Grammy winner, known for heart-wrenching ballads such as Someone Like You and Rolling in the Deep, said she had always been drawn to sad music.

"I have a very dark side. I'm very available to depression. I can slip in and out of it quite easily. It started when my granddad died, when I was about 10, and while I never had a suicidal thought, I have been in therapy, lots.

"But I haven't had that feeling since I had my son and snapped out of my post-partum depression," she added.


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Adele gave birth to Angelo four years ago with boyfriend Simon Konecki.

"I had really bad post-partum depression after I had my son, and it frightened me... My knowledge of post-partum - or postnatal, as we call it in England - is that you don't want to be with your child; you're worried you might hurt your child; you're worried you weren't doing a good job. But I was obsessed with my child. I felt very inadequate; I felt like I'd made the worst decision of my life. It can come in many different forms," the singer said.


Adele acknowledged that her future songs would likely never match those she wrote for her 2011 album 21, which has sold more than 31 million copies worldwide.

"I can see from an outsider's perspective that I will never write songs as good as the ones that are on 21, but I'm not as indulgent as I was then, and I don't have time to fall apart like I did then.

"I was completely off my face writing that album, and a drunk tongue is an honest one," she said.

Since having a child, Adele said she has quit smoking and now drinks only a couple of glasses of wine a week. Apart from her legions of fans, the singer has also gained the support of other industry stars, particularly Beyonce who Adele labels, "my Michael Jackson."

And Beyonce showed all the love back revealing that strong banter is part of the pair's friendship.

"It is so easy to talk to her and be around her," Beyonce told Vanity Fair.

"She's funny as hell and her comebacks are legendary. The most beautiful thing about Adele is that she has her priorities straight. She is a gracious woman and the most humble human being I've ever met.

"When Adele sings you can hear that it's coming from an unfiltered honesty and purity. She creates songs that go deep and expose pain and vulnerability with her soulful voice. She takes you places other artists don't go to anymore—the way they did in the '70s."



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