After weighing up risks, the options that are here (which are pretty pathetic to be honest) and the fact that all I'm hearing from 'the system' is intervention intervention intervention which they are unable to support as to why with any strength to their argument it really was a no-brainer. To have a safe, intervention and drug free labour we will be staying at home.
it will give us the option to know our support person and be confident in our situation. Considering the Ob I was going to is resigning a month before baby is due, the GP/ob I've been seeing is going to be on long service when baby is born and we've been blocked from the hospital midwife program then we've got little other choice... the other ob in town hasn't got the best of reputations and is very knife and intervention happy and it was his office which told me after I had some bleeding that getting an obstetrician appointment was not going to help me if I was miscarrying, so not off to a good start there either
So we have a birthing pool booked, support to assist and have a back up plan for transfer if required. I've had an appointment with the hospital anesthetist who said that I will be able to use the hospital is required, he has absolutely no concerns with my history at all which was a huge relief after hearing of other womens plights around town with transfers mid labour etc...
So, it's done. Decision made, next thing is to write out a birth/emergency plan to present to the hospital should we need to transfer. and to make sure that we have everything else prepared and organised at home for this little ones arrival somewhere in the next 15 weeks
I'm feeling soooo relieved, happy and content with our decision - especially after meeting with like minded local people who have had similar concerns and issues with us... I don't feel as alone and 'weird' for our choices now - not that I should have in the first place, but when people you thought you could trust all of a sudden turn and attack you telling you to all but put up and shut up it really shakes ones confidence in oneself!! Not any more though - strong, determined and trusting in myself, my body and my instincts