Firstly, I'd like to say what a great resource this place is. It has opened my eyes to just how many people are going through the very same struggles that my husband and I are experiencing.

We live in Brisbane and my husband and I met 4 years ago, and have been married for a little over a year now. We knew from the very beginning that we wanted to have children. My husband has a 9 year old daughter from a previous relationship who we have 100% custody of, and without her, I don't think I would have been able to make it through this tremendously difficult time. I am very grateful and feel blessed to have her in our lives.

I wanted to tell our whole journey, so I'm sorry if it's long. I am 27 and my DH is 30, and we decided shortly after the wedding to start TTC, but I had this feeling that something wasn't right from the start. This was confirmed when my periods hadn't returned for 6 months after ceasing contraception. This triggered my visit to the GP. Bloods were ordered and once I had the results, I was back to the GP to talk about exactly what they meant. She didn't seem too concerned at the time, but then proceeded to tell me that my hormone levels were that of a post menopausal women. How is that something to NOT be concerned about? I couldn't believe it. She tried to reassure me that I was "still young", and to give it some time and we'll test again in a month.

Repeat tests showed nothing new. In fact, the hormone levels were getting worse. This is when she decided to refer me to a reproductive endocrinologist. Throughout this time, my DH was nothing but supportive and positive that the situation would be ok, but I knew deep down that something was wrong. After an agonising wait to get to see the RE, all my fears were confirmed. At the age of 27, I had already gone through menopause. Even though I knew what the RE was going to tell us, I still broke down when it was confirmed that I could never have a biological child. To go from talking to your husband about what your kids will look like, to six months later having that ripped from me was so hard to accept. I cried..... I cried a lot. For the loss of that genetic link, for my husband and I creating a life together.

That's when I started researching about other avenues, and came across many sites with information about donor eggs. At the beginning I still mourned for that loss of a genetic link, but I soon discovered that that was such a small part of the whole process of creating a beautiful baby. I would still have that amazing bond with my baby that I would carry for 9 months, that I would nourish and help grow. With these thoughts I grew excited about the beginning of a new journey for my DH and I, and I feel I am finally at peace with my body and ready to move on.

So here we are, let the journey begin!

Lovely ad Riss, I feel your pain. I am only 31 and partner 26 have been trying to concieve a baby for the last 2 and a half years, we have currently had 3 unsuccessful ICSI transfers, and at my age my heart sank hearing that I would never have my own biological child. Luckily for us though there is still hope in one day carrying and holding a beautiful bundle of joy, it may take us a little longer than others but one day it will be our turn too. Hoping 2011 is kind to us both. Sending you a and please know you are not alone in this journey.

You Egg donor angel will find you soon enough!

Hi Riss,

I just wanted to wish you all the best for the new direction of your journey. Your story is heartbreaking, but I do believe in your positivity for your future- I'm hoping your donor angel finds you quickly. Wishing you all the best and please feel free to drop back into the LOR buddy group and let us know how you are going.

Best wishes xx

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Thankyou for opening yourself up and sharing your story. Your donor is out there

ps perhaps let people know your location?

KHGB - Thank you, I do believe it is very hard to take in when we are so young. I used to personally think that I failed my husband and my family for not being able to have a child. But as you have said, we are just on a different path to most people and will get to hold that bundle of joy one day. Here's hoping you also find your donor angel.

Neptune - Thank you for your support, and also the rest of the girls at LOR group. It was very comforting knowing that others were going through similar experiences and that we aren't as alone as we feel. I hope to keep up to date with all the goings on over there. All the very best to you.

twistedmama - It is hard at times, but my DH and I are excited about the future, and are keeping our hopes high that our angel is out there somewhere.

Hello, I want to wish you well in your search for a donor. Yes there are many of us searching for a donor in one way or another.
Have you joined Bub Hub and Aussie Egg Donors?
They another couple of places where you can place an add and find a lot of help and suport.
It isnt an easy journey and sometimes it can take a while but, with the help and suport of others who are going through the same thing you will get through it.
Yours Heather and Rob

Ethyl47 - Thank you Heather. I have signed up for Aussie egg donor, but I am still waiting on activation over a week later. Not sure how long it takes to go through.

Contact the moderators they will sort it out for you, sometimes there can be a hic up but, if you contact the moderators they will sort it out normaly within 24/48 hours.

Hey riss. I feel your pain. I also felt I was letting
Down my family and hubby that I was no good.
U feel like u have failed. Of course they have re
Enforced that this is not the case but it's still in
The back of your head. I wish u all the luck love
And blessings In the world for your Ed journey Hun
Keep up the faith and blessings will be abundant on
You and hubby. Take care xxx

Thanks Dee Dee. Really appreciate it.

Thought I would add a little more about us.

I am working part time at a physiotherapy clinic, doing administration and general management. My hubby and I decided to cut my hours down from full time to part time so that we didn't need to put our daughter into so much child care. We both think it is very important to spend as much time as possible with her, so this was perfect. My hubby Jorge is an electrician, and he very much enjoys what he does.

We bought a house a couple of years ago and we are still going with renovations Seems like a never ending job, but we are slowly making our way through the list, and can't wait till it's all finished.

We have a few pets, as little miss and I are animal lovers. Three guinea pigs, Romeo Trixie and Ginga and a little budgie we took in, Cookie. We are waiting to get a dog until we have finished the yard and get our fence up.

Our family loves the outdoors. We love to go camping, 4 wheel driving, riding bikes and going to the beach. We went exploring on our pushies one day, my bike was a bit older than theirs so I had to be a little careful because the brakes weren't what they used to be. There was a big hill we had to go down, and Jorge and Emmilia decided to walk down with their pushies (the sensible ones) but I for some reason thought I would just ride down it. Long story short, I went flying down the hill with little to no brakes, legs and feet desperately flailing to slow me down. Scariest thing ever, but I made it safely to the bottom thank god. Wont be doing that again.

Anyhoo, more about our family. We have a multicultural family. My hubbies side is from El Salvador, so family is really important. We have regular get togethers to cook big family meals of pupusa's and paella, and they always end up in fun and dancing. My spanish is still a little rusty , but it's funny how most of the words my hubby has taught me have to do with food. I guess it's important to know how to ask for some cheese.

Well I hope that was a little more insight into our family!!

Love the sig, you guys are adorable

Awwww.. thanks twistedmama.

I don't have much to add other than to wish you all the best!

I just want to wish you all the baest and pray that your angel finds you soon. I like the update about you and the family.
I think the phots are sweet.