Look out Lovelies,
this will be mammoth seeing I haven’t been able to catch up with you properly during the week! Hope you're all having a great weekend.
drug free & dangerous eh? Look out DH, the count down’s on!
You would have had your FS appointment by now. I hope both you & your DH got great results. Can’t wait for the update on your latest advice from your FS.
Yes, Julie, I’d love it if we were all just around the corner to drop in for a wine or a juice! It’s great being able to chat with someone going through similar experiences, but I seriously think we’d all be ROFL about anything & everything in general. It sounds like we all have more in common than just TTC. It’d be a United Nations gathering - well you do have a ‘Mexican’ (south of the Qld border) as well!
How’s the beach ensemble going? All kitted out?
I hope your scare is well & truly over, that the Crinone’s doing the trick and that scan day is full of wonderment with lots of gooing and garring so you can head over to South Africa beaming your best ‘Baby on Board’ smile.
Your holiday is well deserved after the stress of cycling. I hope you have a fabulous time! Just in case I can’t post again before you head off - Merry Christmas & Happy New Year! I will be looking out for updates from you when I’m back in the country from mid January. Take care of you! I’m still just so excited for you! Congratulations again Chloe!
DH’s DD’s are 18 & 13 and yes they are coming to live with us permanently we hope (immigration visas pending). Their mother actually doesn’t want them with her any more. I was appalled at that comment and just could not comprehend where she was coming from no matter how hard I tried. DH & I definitely want them with us so we feel like we’re the lucky ones and I made sure DH told the girls they are loved and wanted and we can’t wait to welcome them to their new home. Both girls are keen to be with us as soon as possible and for a new addition to the family too.
DH’s ex is a Dr & he gave up his career as an Environmental Scientist to be a stay at home Dad for many years. They have been separated for many years now & have both had other partners but it was only when we met that he decided to finally get divorced. Polygamy is accepted in PNG (with men having many wives) but it’s definitely not acceptable with me - that's the one thing I definitely won't share. I feel the divorce has propagated the response in his ex but he thinks she wants her freedom to pursue her career and her boyfriend without the children around. Nah, still can’t understand it. Love me, love my children I say.
Yes, I’m anxious about how it will all pan out because childhood is such a precious thing and I have zero ‘motherhood’ experience. We’re all going to have to improve our communication skills I feel. It’ll be a huge adjustment for us all on so many different levels. As for whether they will travel back to visit their mother, I guess that will be one of the topics up for family discussion. My first response was definitely, but I suppose all parties need to be willing for that to come about and financially it's a large cost (internal airfares are very expensive in PNG).
Are you getting excited about your OS trip yet?
you would have had your EPU this morning. I hope you got great results, the ‘good’ drugs have kicked in for any pain relief needed, your DH is pampering you and you’re enjoying some well deserved R & R!
When do they do the genetic testing for you? Is it at 5 days/blast? Good luck for the fertilization of that football team! Ruby
welcome aboard! How exciting for you - EPU - yeh!
How many follicles are you expecting? Is your FS recommending 2/3 day transfers or 5 day transfers? What type of cycle are you on - Antagonist? I hope your journey with IVF is short & sweet and that Santa brings you a sticking embie! Do you have any plans for xmas?
any news on when you start your AC journey? How’re you going? This'll be your bub's first xmas won't it? Have you lined up for the Santa photo yet?
hope all is cycling well with you for your FET and that those ovaries of yours are rejuvenating beautifully.
to any of the other Fab 40’s out there. Jump on in!
had another acupuncture session on Friday & unfortunately my pulses were racing (not good - conducive to the body trying to expel). So had a sh*t day trying to keep my emotions in check at the office. After last week being so promising, this was not the news I was wanting. Came home and broke down in tears to DH.
***Warning - am about to turn into a bitter old cow*** He was obviously saddened too but then picked himself up & told me about the new $200 watch he’d bought himself, and oh, that money he was supposed to give me towards paying off our IVF & travel bill on my credit card (that is currently incurring interest) - it’ll will have to wait! So felt like I should have been the centre of his universe at that moment only to find out that I wasn’t, self gratification came first!
Trying to suck up the tears & boiling in silent venom over his misguided priorities, I put dinner on the table & he dismissed it saying he’ll have it later (retaliation for the obvious super cranky cow vibes I was now omitting). Yep, tried to contain a Linda Blair moment and had a melt down in the bathroom instead. Felt like sh*t to start with, hyper sensitive I know, but on all days that I needed his support he chose instead to walk out & head to the man cave at the local sports club to escape ‘whatever was wrong’ whilst I cried my eyes out questioning the meaning of life alone.
Two hours later we finally got to talk it through. What a crap day. We know we both have to improve our communication skills when we’re upset or angry. Thank God it is a very rare occurrence but it’s very important we get that one right and it scares me.
So today AF arrived, one day late. Joy to the world! Yep, oh so vulnerable, bearly managed to suck up the tears at the shopping centre then had another melt down when we got home. This time DH stayed put for support & he didn’t need to be a mind reader as I openly howled my heart out. Left over grief from last night’s episode too I think. DH’s on back to back shifts tonight through to tomorrow afternoon, so I’m home alone wallowing in my misery and in all the foods & drinks I have been avoiding for the sake of TTC.
We’ve decided that we will travel to PNG as originally planned so will not be able to IVF cycle due to malaria risks if pregnant for the next two cycles. That would bring us up to the last week in January before signing on again, all going to schedule.
Hoping like crazy the ovarian reserve lasts that long and that DH gets his budgeting priorities under control in time to share the cost of the ticket for our 3rd
rollercoaster ride otherwise it won’t be happening. Have been working hard, saving every single penny to reduce our debt and am so ready for some fun, pampering and relaxation without worrying about TTC or feeling guilty over spending money.
Sorry Ladies, feeling like the super whinging cow carrying the load by myself at the moment. Will snap out of the self pity tomorrow - indulging today alas.
Tomorrow the ‘get rid of the injection roll’ campaign begins. Some serious exercise should do the trick - it’s been a while. That grass mini skirt awaits and it won't be hiding anything other than 'what I had for breakfast'. I guess our tribal wedding ceremony will literally be what you see is what you get (applying more wine, now!)
BTW what did your FS recommend as far as when to BD and when not to? We weren’t told to abstain at all, only that we should BD the night before DH's semen sample and the night of ET as the presence of sperm was conducive to implantation. It’s just that my acupuncturist suggested that it’s not recommended after that to minimize potential cramping until the embryo has implanted. Yep, niggling thought that BDing might have upset our apple cart this time. I know if it's going to stick, it'll stick but would really love to know what has been recommended to you.
Thanks for listening Lovelies.