Hi all,
I don't usually post in here but I just need a bit of a vent. AF arrived today (which I expected) and I was fine with it until I walked past the baby section in Kmart this arvo. I had to fight back the tears. I feel so dumb. I haven't been TTCing for nearly as long as some of you girls, and I don't have the medical probs that some of you do, so I know that I am just carrying on like a fruit-loop. But this month has just really gotten to me.
We have our first appointment at IVF Australia next week, and I should be positive about that, but stupid me had it in my head that we would just fall pregnant before that date and we wouldn't need to go.
My sister is pregnant (which I am stoked about) and I have friend's having babies all around me (1 due every month til the end of the year), so I am just strating to wonder why I am bothering. I really want to have a baby, but is it really worth going through all the assistance crap?? It really makes having a baby so clinical!
Anyway, enough of my whingeing! Thanks for reading this far.
I think I feel a little better? Maybe it's the chocolate!!
Cheers,
Bianca


Bianca (28)
DH (29)
DS (10)

TTC since Feb 03
Fingers crossed it is our time soon!

Don't worry about having a vent. We all feel this way sometimes/most of the time. Having all those babies being born around you is certainly enough to shake the defences a bit. You have every right to feel down and a bit teary... it is a stressful time going through thos whole TTC saga.

Having chocolate is a wonderful remedy for feeling miserable. Good luck with IVF Australia, hope the appointment goes well. Sometimes just feeling like something is getting done is enough to make you feel like you are getting somewhere...

Regards,
JoyBaby

"A daughter is a special part of all that's precious in the heart"

Don't worry Bianca, you're totally normal, I lost it yesterday morning with my DH sitting in a coffee shop, just because a pregnant woman walked in with a two yo child....! Probably something to do with just having handed over ANOTHER cheque for $4000 when I was sure we wouldn't have to go through all this again and I feel sooo guilty..! (nothing wrong with DH's swimmers) Stay strong girl!
Sarbear

Me 30 PCOS
DH 25
2002 BDing
2003 Clomid 50-150mg no O
2004 IVF chem pg, 2x FET BFNs
August: start second stim