My husband & I were lucky enough to fall pregnant sometime on our honeymoon. I had a happy and easy pregnancy, and very speedy delivery. Isabella was born only 3 hours after I went into labor, only 20 minutes of pushing. It was so easy we went home the next day.
My husband was overjoyed at being a Daddy, and couldn't wait to have another baby. As it turned out, we didn't have long to wait, Bella was only 6 months old when Daniella was conceived. We were over the moon! Two babies so close together, what great friends they would be, they would get to share everything growing up. It was not meant to be....
I had another fairly problem free pregnancy, I started to get really big at the end, and the OB said I might need a C-Section (depending on how big the baby got) or an episiotomy, but everything else was fine. I went into labor early in the morning of the 9th of November. It was almost identical to Bella’s birth, fast and strong, and we went to the hospital straight away. I told the nurse when we first arrived that I may need a C-Section because of the size of the baby, she just laughed at me and said "you'll be fine, don't panic." They checked me over, I was already dilated, and Bubbies heart beat was strong. Our Dr came in to check on me, He said "I can feel the babies head, it will be here in about 2 minutes!" He walked out of the room to check on another woman, and I felt a huge contraction. I screamed at the nurse "Somethings wrong!" my stomach had tightened during the contraction, but it didn't release. It was a horrible feeling, trying to explain to the nurse (and my poor frantic husband) that something was seriously not right, when on the outside everything looked fine.

The nurse finally checked on Bubbies heartbeat, but couldn't find it. She called for the Dr, all the time searching for Bubbies heartbeat. I remember screaming "Just do a cesarean, Do it now!" The Dr came in and examined me, "I can't feel the babies head." he says, "There's no heartbeat." says the nurse. My husband collapses.....
Next thing I remember is everyone running to surgery, racing me through the corridors, then when we arrive at surgery, the staff aren't there yet, and we have to wait. I feel numb, just lying there waiting to see what is going to happen next, thinking "This is the worst dream I've ever had, please let me wake up now, please God let me wake up." My husband is stroking my hair, tears streaming down his face," no. no, not our baby" he's saying.
Our Dr comes over and talks to my Husband as if I'm not even there. "I'm sorry, but the baby is lost, there is nothing we can do, it is going to be a struggle to save your wife, we'll do everything we can, but be prepared." My husband yells, I don't remember what he said. He kissed me as they wheeled me into theatre, "I love you so much." He said. The nurses later told me that as soon as the doors shut behind me, my husband dropped to his knees and cried, "Take me, please God let them be OK, and take me, take me."
My uterus had ruptured, a million in one chance, they say closer to a billion in one chance in our case, because I had only been in labor for one hour. They had to do a hysterectomy to save my life, but I still lost nearly half the blood in my body. I woke up in recovery and said "Where's Daniella?" A nurse was holding one hand, My husband the other. She said "Your baby didn't make it love, and the Drs had to do a hysterectomy, do you understand?" I said "You should have just let me die."
I spent a few days in hospital wanting to die, refusing to take my medication and not eating, Staying awake all night listening to the babies in the next room cry. My Husband didn't want to lose me as well, so he spent all day, every day at the hospital with me. He would give me my medication, and hand feed me, shower me, and take me to the toilet. When I told him I couldn't sleep because of all the babies crying, he told the Drs that he was taking me home. They told him he still had an 80% chance of losing me, he said "not on my watch." and took me home. He took 4 months of work and looked after me 24/7. He is amazing.


DD Isabella
DD Daniella (stillborn)

I don't even have any words, but i could not read and then just click back and not say anything ! I cannot believe what you have been through it is just so not far, i am sorry you lost your precious Daniella.

huge hugs to you

~Jen~


DD~5/8/01
DS~20/12/03

This message was edited by cas&cam on Friday, 3 June 2005 @ 3:55 PM

As I write the tears are running down my face. I am so sorry you lost your darling Daniella. I only lost my beautiful Kyla at 37.5 weeks eight weeks ago now and the pain of that is unbearable, i can only imagine the pain that you must feel after losing your chance to have any more children. I hope i have half of the strength that you and your family must have to get through this pain. {{{hugs}}} to you all.

Tanya
(DD) Kyla Grace (Angel 3/4/05)

This message was edited by TAH on Friday, 3 June 2005 @ 4:49 PM

Leslee I couldn't not reply to your story. I am so so sorry for what you have experienced and feel for you, your husband and Bella. I don't really know what else to say, but know that I am thinking about you.

Jen

My heart aches for you and your family.
I am so sorry for the tragic loss of a beautiful baby.

My thoughts are with you

Take care
Best wishes
Tania

Oh, I'm so sorry that you lost Danniella. What a beautiful name. I'll bet she was a beautiful baby. I wish I could offer you words of comfort, there is nothing I can say.
I'm sorry that you yourself were so sick, and that such drastic measures had to be taken to save your life. It must have been so hard for your husband to see you so ill. He obviously loves you very very much.

((((hugs)))))My deepest condolences to your family.

Melissa
Edited to say: I just read your poem about Danniella in the "Loss of a child or loved one" section. It was beautiful. Truly beautiful. What a lovely poem for your daughter.

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This message was edited by Melissa4444 on Friday, 3 June 2005 @ 4:24 PM

Oh my- I couldnt not reply to this. You are such a wonderful and strong person for sharing your story and Daniella sounds like such a precious baby. I am so glad your husband is such a wonderful and supportive person, you are obviously soulmates. Im sure Daniella is watching over you all, especially her big sister Bella.

A very good friend of mine has a similar story to yours which resulted in a hysterectomy to save her life also. Please feel free to PM me if you would like to talk to her, Im sure she would love to contact you via email to help you. Sometimes only the people who have experienced something such as this can possibly understand as they know the pain you feel.

Take care of you

Marnsxx

Marns 25
DH 32
Riley 6/7/01
Connor 7/4/04
M/C 01/10/04 (Due 02/06/05)
M/C 02/06/05 (Due 10/01/05)
Specialist Appt- 13th June

What a Devastating loss for you. I cant either put into words how it made me feel reading your post. But know that there are lots of people out there thinking of you and your husband. I will say a prayer for you all including little Daniella.
My heart goes out to you.

I am so sorry for your tragic loss of Daniella. We lost our beautiful son Jamie at 32 weeks last September and that was very tragic. I can't imagine how you must be feeling after having to have a hysterectomy.

I could only imagine the courage it must have taken you to write your post. Isabella now has a beautiful guardian angel looking out for her and all of you.

Lots of hugs and kisses and if you would like to chat feel free to send me a private message.

Take care and all of the best.

Jodie

Leslee there is nothing I can say or do to ease the pain that you and your DH are going through. All I can do is send (((hugs)))) and thank you for sharing more of your story with us.
Stay strong together and if you feel able, take up Marns offer to put you in touch with her friend. It is sometime helpful (for both people) to share with someone who has been through a similar experience

hugs Molly

Colin & Molly
Triona's Mum&Dad
Triona Jensen 1980-2004
http://www.angelfire.com/dragon2/triona_jensen/

DGS Jacob Jensen
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Im so so sorry for your terrible loss. I could never fathom what you've been through, to lose a beautiful baby girl and then your ability to have another child.

Big hugs to you and your familyxxx

Hello Leslee,
Not sure what to say but reading your story brought tears to my eyes... I am so sorry for the loss you and your family suffered but am so happy that your little Bella and your husband didn't loose you.
Good luck to you and yours in the future,
Jane

What a tragic tragic story, thankyou for sharing it with us. I am so glad and thankful you did live for you dear husband and precious Bella. I am so sorry for the tragic loss of little Daniella and the cruel double loss of any future children when they removed your uterus.

You are in my thoughts, take care.

Over 350 people have read daniella's story now,
and that gives me great comfort.
I can't thank you all enough for your kindness....
All the other Mums here who have lost their babies,
(How I wish I could Hug everyone of you!)
know what it's like,
to have people pretend that your baby never existed.
But daniella was real.
She was beautiful, perfect, and gorgeous, and the spitting image of her big sister.
She was alive inside me, she had her own personality,
she had likes (nutella by the spoonful) and dislikes (buttered toast)
And I love her, and miss her....

Leslee!

Having given birth to my second daughter in November I can't even begin to imagine the pain you are going through right now!

The tears are streaming down my face as I type.

Your husabnd is amazing! take good care of yourself and know htat Daniella is up there looking over you all.

God Bless

Kim

Rebecca Jade - 18/07/01
Alessia Ann - 16/11/04

Leslee,

I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful Daniella. Thank you for sharing your story, as heartbreaking as it is. Your husband is truly amazing. Wishing you all love and strength.



Narelle
Proud Mummy of my gorgeous girls
Charlotte Rose 25.10.01
Alexandra Kate 03.04.03
and our Angel Baby 28.12.04 RIP little one

Leslee, thankyou for sharing your story with us, and for posting that beautiful photo of Daniella. I can't begin to imagine the pain you have suffered and will continue to suffer. I hope your daughter Isabella gives you the strength to heal.
What causes uterine rupture? Are there any indications?

You know I've been sitting in my kitchen with a long face, giving out about useless everyday crap, you've just put a whole new perspective on things for me & thank you. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Love & hugs,
Maura

Your daughter Daniella is perfect and beautiful, you must miss her so much. My heart aches & cries for you all, life can be so hard.

hugs,
Heather

Oh Leslee, thank you so much for sharing your life with us. I am sitting here in tears. I am so sorry that you didn't get more time with your darling Daniella, she is beautiful!
I am glad and i am sure your family are glad you are still here for you darling Isabella.
Thank you again for sharing.

Caroline
ME 27
DH Mat 29
DS JACK (22/05/02)
M/C (01/07/04)
2 DDogs

EDD 20/06/05 : A GIRL!! :C/S Date 7th of June
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~LESLEE~

My heart aches for you. Your daughter is truly beautiful.



This brought back memories for me, as I had a uterine rupture which resulted in the loss of our son. It is a feeling you can't describe, and occasionally I still have this pain (I still have my uterus).

I take comfort in how much of a connection I had with Kobie during pregnancy, something that my husband doesn't have (which makes me sad). But I am also still here, and lucky to be alive....but we are survivors.

My thoughts are with you.

I couldn't read your story and not reply. I don't know what to say, and am sure that nothing I can say will take away the pain you feel. The loss of your beautiful daughter must be devestating, and the loss of your ability to have more children just as devestating. Hold your wonderful husband and Bella in your arms and love what you have. I'm so sorry that this awful thing has happened to you and your family. (((((HUGS)))))



Emma
DH Andrew
DS Patrick Finn 19/6/02

Oh Leslee,

She was just beautiful! What a sweet, precious little girl you have there! I'll bet Isabella is adorable too!

((hugs)) to you and your DH. Just wanted you to know that I think she was beautiful.

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Take care Leslee.

Daniella is so beautiful, with such a beautiful name.

Crystal

Thankyou so much for sharing your story and the photo of you gorgeous daughter. I wish I was there to give you a big hug also, I lost my first daughter in Jan 04 after she was born prematurely by C/S, she was only with us for 2 weeks in ICU.

Take care, Sandy

Thank you all so very much,
it brings me such joy,
every time someone says "she's beautiful"
So many heartfelt replies,
I cannot stop the tears that are falling....

marvy: There were no signs to indicate that this was going to happen. Daniella was a bigger than Bella, by nearly 2 lb, but no-one knows why this happened, and definately no-one expected it.

Thank you to everyone who commented on Daniella's name,
My husbands name is Daniel, he had such a strong bond with Daniella before she was born, he would talk to my tummy and she would push against me trying to touch him. She always knew the difference between his hand on my tummy, and someone elses. He was the only one she would kick! We only decided on her name about 2 weeks before she was born, I think it definately suits her....


DD Isabella
DD Daniella (stillborn)

Your daughter is beautiful, words can not describe how sorry I'am for you and your family, its just so sad.

My uterus ruptured at 27 weeks, and my baby boy only lived for 3 weeks. I remember the pain when it happen, fortunantly because I was only 27 weeks they took my pain seriously and I was flown down to royal womans hospital in melb, and they were able to give my baby a fighting chance. They also saved my uterus by re-stitching, it will be 2 years this Aug. The pain of missing my baby never leaves me, as I'm sure it doesn't with anyone who has suffered a loss, but the added fact of never having children again would be unbearable. My thoughts and prayes go out to you and your family.
lilic

I'm so sorry. She was just beautiful, stunning.

Caroline

Ruby
18/5/04
9 weeks early

Leslee, thank you for sharing your story and photo; Daniella is so precious.

I can't imagine anything more devastating then what you went through, and I am glad you found the strength to go on. Your husband sounds wonderful, just as you do, and I am so sorry that you all had to go through this. There are no words to express how unfair it is when someone has such a short time here.

Love and hugs to you and all your family.

I don't even know you and yet my heart broke at reading your story. I'm so sorry for yours and DH's loss of Daniella and also for the loss of future children through the hysterectomy.

Thinking of you.

Rachael

OMG. My heart was breaking reading your story. I am so sorry to hear of your families loss.



Thanks

Rohan & Harley 1 Oct 02

My baby has his cast off

Oh Leslee. What can I say? She is such a beautiful little girl. Thankyou for sharing her with us.

Susana & DH Chris[size=1] aka GoateeCat
DD Delia Jade 13/11/02 & DS Darcy Cole 2/11/04

Leslee, thank you so much for sharing Daniella with us (and especially her photo) she is indeed a perfect beautiful little girl.

I lost my son during the final stages of labour as well - he was 10 pounds - physically perfect.

Our babies who are not here will live on in all of our hearts - keep sharing your story, Daniella will not be forgotton.

Your husband sounds like a wonderful man - I don't think society gives men enough room to grieve properly. I was allowed to cry for a year, but my guy was expected to get on with it - I believe that this contributed to his depression of two years post losing Monty.

Take good care of your self babe

Jess
www.babiesonline.com/babies/m/montymoo

Daniella is just perfect.... I am soo sorry for your loss. I cant imagine how that feels to lose something as precious as your baby. You husband sounds like one beautiful man who loves you with all his heart.

Thank you for sharing your story with us and the photo of your precious girl...

Kaysie

Leslee,

I am so sorry to read of your tragic loss. Your daughter was truly beautiful.

Your husband is a truly amazing man.

Thinking of you during this very hard time.

Take care of you.

Regards,
Lisa

This message was edited by ~Lisa~ on Sunday, 5 June 2005 @ 8:40 PM

I have tears in my eyes from reading your post. I can't offer you any words of wisdom because I just don't know what to say but just know I'm sending you a big hug and thinking of you and DH.

Me 24
DH 34

Oh Leslee, I have tears streaming down my cheeks and am overwhelmed with sadness at the cruelty of what happened to you and your family. I don't know how you get over such a tragedy, but I think you are incredibly lucky to have such a wonderful friend in your husband. He must have looked after you so well. My heart is broken for both of you. Daniella was a perfect little angel and a more gorgeous baby you could not imagine. I wish I could give you a huge hug. I hope that time eases the pain a little bit.
Lots of love,
Becky



Toby Benjamin born 21/9/04
10 weeks early!
www.babiesonline.com/babies/b/becandmyles/

Life can be so cruel sometimes. To take a child away from it's parents can be one of the worst pains ever felt. My heart is aching for you and your husband.
The photo of your little girl is gorgeous and your husband sounds like a very strong man.

Sending you both huge HUG!!!!
Glenda

I've tried so many times to start my post and cant find any words to express myself. Your traggic story bought tears to my eyes and i am so saddened by your loss. You have an amazing husband you cares so deeply for you and i wish you both and Bella so much love and strength through this hard time.

Take care
Buddygirl

Leslee, your dear Daniella reminds me to be the best mum i can be to my now teenage boys.She inspires and reminds me to be gratefull for them every single second. God bless you and your dear family Kim

Leslee,
With tears streaming down my face I had to reply to you and your loving family.

I cannot imagine what pain you and your family are going through, but my thoughts and prayers are with you.

It seems that you have a wonderful husband, and a loving daughter. Give them a huge hug every day while you remember your gorgeous Daniella. May she forever stay strong in your heart.





Jen
DH 30
DD Kiara 7/10/03
DD Hope 10/2/05

Oh my goodness Leslee,

I have pm'd u darl.

Leslee, I'm so very sorry for your loss, I have tears streaming down my face right now.

Your little girl is simply beautiful, it is so cruel and unfair that she was taken away from you

I have nothing constructive or helpful to say that may ease your pain I'm sorry.....

*hugs* --> seems so pathetic putting that there, but thats all I can do.

Leslee,
I just wanted to thank you for the strength in posting your story. It was so very sad. It allowed me the opening to more tears and I thankyou for that. Daniella is absolutely gorgeous and I immediately thought, at least Jaydyn is going to be in the company of some beautiful girls while he is in the heavenly playgroup. Jaydyn was born sleeping at 39wks just 13wks ago.You have such a special husband who loves you so much, but I can understand why you said 'you should have just let me die'. It is so hard to comprehend going on with life when your little one is taken away but I am certainly glad you chose life as Bella wants to hold her mummies hand for many years to come I am sure. Take precious care of yourself Leslee, know we are all thinking of you and that your story has touched so many hearts. I know once I posted Jaydyns story 760 people read his story and that warmed my heart to know he had 'met' so many people. hugs to you and your family.
Kylie

DH-Darrin
DS-Connor Jayde
DS-Jaydyn Kai,given angelwings @39wks, 12Feb05

My heart aches for you and your husband and your little girl to lose your daughter and sister in such a tragic way. Your husbands words brought tears to my eyes and I cannot begin to imagine how you fell not only losing precious Daniella but having a hysterectomy as well.
Sending you huge hugs every time you think of your little daughter.

Susan ~Jacob 201293 Patrick 211294 Caleb 101297 Thomas 29999 Ethan 10903 and baby 291005

I'm so sorry for your loss. She's just beautiful.
My thoughts are with you and your family.

Jody

I just wanted to say your little girl is beautiful, and I know she will be forever in your heart. Many hugs to you and your family.


My Little Angel
13-1-03 to 7-7-03

[img]http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v285/epardon/DSC02828rs.bmp[/img]
Our special gift from heaven
5-10-04

Diary Name : Little Man

Thank you so much for sharing your gorgeous little girl and your story with us. I love her photo and her cute little hat.
Your story really hit a nerve with me but its just another thing I will have to try to deal with in hopefully bringing my beatiful boy into the world in 8 weeks, after the sad loss of our first Angel Alexis who was still born at 39 weeks.
I guess as the days get closer I get more scared as I know all the things that can go wrong. But your strength is inspiring and for that I thank you.
Your husband sound really special and I thank God I am lucky enough to have a husband very much the same. If not for him I don't think I would have gotten through the last 15 months.
Thank you once again for sharing with us.
Love Kylie


Kylie
DH
Alexis Ivy
Born our angel-12.2.04 (39 Weeks)
"Our Little Ray of Sunshine"
http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/a/alexis12204/



This message was edited by kylie12 on Wednesday, 8 June 2005 @ 10:28 AM

~LESLEE~

i just had to reply after reading your story, your DD Daniella is gorgeous and i am truely so sorry for your loss and hope you can find the strength to battle on.

And to Daniel i know you have all had a big loss and you are a great man to be so strong for your wife!

I was here awhile ago when you first posted but i am back to tell you how beautiful and perfect in every way Daniella looks in that pic, just gorgeous. I also love that hat