[Guest_holy_j_*]

As above.

I have friends, and you talk about the usual stuff, and it's all good. Sometimes i blab bits and pieces on here, to get it off my chest, but that's the usual annoyances that everyone has. I have one friend that I talk about things more than any other, but some things i just never talk about with anyone, even if I still think about those things from time to time now. Not even my partner do I tell everything to. Sometimes I think, it would do me good to talk to get over things, but in the past when i have been close to talking about things, the defenses automatically go up and I push the people away.

So I feel like no one really knows me.

Does that make sense bit abstract for this time of night.

[MrsNorthman]

It made sense Do you want someone to really know you? Der, I know...but would you consider some counseling to help you make that first step. Is it about trust for you? Or do you think you would feel too vulnerable if someone really knew you?

[yodie86]

I understand what you are saying.

Until not too long ago I felt like that and to a point still do. I have a saying 'that you only show parts of yourself to certain people' and only you know the whole you.

My DH knows the most ( about 95% ) of me but there is that 5% ( that I label myself 'the crazy) that no one but me will ever really know about.

What ever happens I hope you feel at peace with yourself

[squeekums]

I get where your coming from, i'm the same. There about 2 or 3 people who know 90% about me. But there is still that 'wall' that i keep up Its my own doing though, my trust issues run deep.

Sorry i got no helpful advice but your not alone in how you feel

[caesie'n'linc]

That makes sense to me I often feel exactly the same. I have my sisters, but I can't tell them everything, I also have a fantastic SIL who I have known for many years now and I trust completly but I still can't bring myself to tell her some things either.

I have sort of worked out why I don't let myself get close enough to people to share everything...but it has become a bit of a bad cycle for me something bothers me, I start wishing I had close friends to talk to about it, then I realise WHY I have no close friends (there's actually 2 reasons and they both get me down for different reasons), then I get all upset about those and then I go back to wishing I had someone to talk to....and around it goes until I find myself either typing random stuff to post here (and then not posting it) or I end up in the shower crying when it's something really bothering me.

I really have no suggestions that might help you, I'm sorry. But you are more than welcome to pm me if you ever need to talk to someone I actually find it easier to 'talk' to strangers at the moment rather than talk face to face to people, even though I know they all care about me and would happily listen and support me...

[howdo]

Yep. I know what you mean.

[Guest_holy_j_*]

I don't know! Do i really want people to know me? Do i even know myself? Good questions. Thanks for the replies.



This post has been edited by holy_j: 13/04/2012, 11:14 PM

[luckycakes]

If you ever want to tell me more than you do, (I know I am a crazy wench and talk a lot, but my ears and mind are open and my mouth would stay shut about business not of my own), then you know where I am at. I would love to know you as much as you are prepared for me to know you xo

This post has been edited by luckycakes: 13/04/2012, 11:15 PM

[~kitteh.hoardere...]

I felt that way until I met DF.

I mean my Mum does, but she doesn't count hehehe

[Riverchick20]

I know what you mean. Often I feel the same way only one friend knows about 90% of me . Takes me a long time to open up to other people. Wish it was easier

This post has been edited by Riverchick20: 13/04/2012, 11:24 PM