[Shellby]

As its time for a new thread and Freckles is currently on leave I thought I would start one for you. Here is the link to the old one.

Shellby

[leebec]

GOLD

[zoelicious]

Hey All

Now excuse my ignorance but what does GOLD, SILVER, mean....

MishJ these are my stats?

Name: zoelicious
Age: 38
Enduring since: TTCIVF Nov2010
The facts: Apparently I have elevated NK Cells, CD57. Diagnosed myself with a thin lining. DH has MFI. Seeing a RI who is dealing with my immune issues. Just recently did ivig with no luck. 7 unsuccessful transfers. Not quite sure when this journey will end successfully.

The fact of the matter is I just dont get, I dont understand, I dont know why! Others just fall pregnant at the drop of a hat and gloat about it. So unfair.

Hope everyone has a great day, and everyone is looking after themselves. Sometimes i take a step back and think my life really aint that bad compared to others... But why does it feel like it is most of the time!

xx

[amyc1981]

Hi all
Zoe I will let you have the silver but I will claim BRONZE!
It is just the first , second , third posts in a new thread

Mish I realised i havent added myself to the list so please add:

Name: amyc1981
Age: 30... 31 next week!
enduring since: January 2011
The facts: No facts! All tests done and all clear for everything. Unexplained.
IVF possibly in May.

hoping I hear what you say about IVF and really hoping it works first time. I think I will be devastated if it doesn't. I hope that because we have no issues identified it will work, but you just never know. And I know the dangers of getting my hopes up. I just don't think we can afford to do it too many times over.
I still have hope that this month will be a success naturally and we won't need to do it, but it is only a little hope... surely it would have happened already if it was going to happen naturally.
zoelicious nothing about TTC is fair. the worst part for me is not knowing anyone in my real life who has struggled. Not my mum, not any of my sisters in law, not any of my friends (though only one close friend has started having kids and she is one of those ppl who falls pg just thinking about it).

will be back later, as I should do some work. Have an FS appt next Wednesday to talk about IVF next cycle, so fingers crossed we don't have to wait for any reason.

[Satay chicken]

Zoe - What did the immune guy say about your last cycle? I so hope you got a rundown of what happened...

And, I don't get it either! Although I have always thought at the very back of my mind for years before TTC that I would have trouble - instinct hey!

Pee'd off this arvo - I suddenly have zero signs of O... spose that lets me of BD tonight, sorry to say but thats great!

[leebec]

Satay - even before DH I use to say I know I am going to have to go to IVF as I just know I will have issues.

Given yesterdays doom & gloom appt on anything natural ever happening I really dont feel like BDing at the moment but DH still wants to try natural. I think I am going to ovulate earlier than cd16 so just keeping an eye on it. I suppose I will have to "give in" tonight as such.

Girls I dont want to sound like the gloom master but just dont get all your hopes up and make your first IVF the be all and end all of cycles. I have now done 4 cycles of IVF and still no closer to anything happening. I never went into my first cycle with all hope though as I knew we were in it for the long haul, I just had a feeling. Sure it does work first go, there have been girls in here who have shown that and as I have said before every single person I know in real life who does IVF gets it first go, its just that you need to work out how you are going to cope with it not working as its not guaranteed.

[emso]

Good afternoon ladies...

I concur with the whole "gut" feeling about having issues TTC. I always had a feeling from the time i was 15 or so, that I would have issues. I never thought it would be my husband. However, i've never fallen pregnant and we can't do it on our own, so I could still have further issues on my part when we finally get a donor.

We've been on the waitlist for about 5 weeks now, i'm getting impatient. Everytime I get an email I hurridly check what it is, just incase its the magic "you're almost at the top of the list book in another counselling session" at least then I will feel like we're doing something. I had a bit of a hissy fit the other night about how this is our only chance... we don't get to try a few things before to see if it will happen, we have to do IVF and we have to use a donor, and if that doesn't work then what next. I think i'm panicking about IVF not working in general and then we're up sh*t creek without a paddle.

I have become such a spiteful person, Dh's sister is pregnant, we've kept our distance and just been waiting for the "its boy/girl" text to come. Apparently they find out the sex next week, part of me is really hoping its a boy, she has two boys already, the first she absolutely adores, the second she suffered depression through her pregnancy and afterwards because it was a boy and he gets left out of things a lot and almost forgotten about. She really wants a girl, if this one is a girl, then the second will be left out of everything and not cared abotu and Its his wellbeing i'm worried about in the long term. If she has another boy, it serves her right for pushign to have a girl. I don't wish depression on anyone, but I really want her to suffer because she kept pushign for a third child. Is it wrong for me to think that? Also if she has a girl then that will be favoured by DH's parents, and regardless of what we get (if any) they will probably not care about ours (they are also in another state).Am i being selfish?

[scruff101]

Hi ladies,

I've been seriously slacking off and not posting - I've had to trawl through around 10 pages of the old thread to see where we're all at.

Seems like we're all having a pretty awful time at the moment

Mish - I'm so sorry to hear about your mum. I can relate - mum was diagnosed with breast cancer 11 years ago. It was caught early so she's made a full recovery. Glad to hear her heart is ok. Take care.

leebec - so sorry to hear about your mum's friend - what a tragedy. Hope you're feeling a bit better. Yes, I agree with you on the whole 'hoping the first ivf cycle will work' thing. I went into my first cycle thinking of it as a trial run - not expecting it to work. Even though I was totally not expecting it to work, I was still terribly disappointed when it didn't work.

Daisy - OMG hun, how many more set backs do you have to endure??? I am so sorry to hear what happened, hope you're doing ok.

Mags - sorry to see that you've had to join us, but welcome and hope you're not here for too long.

Satay - sorry to read that af show up on the same day as your new nephew. Glad to hear you were ok when you met him. You know, it is different when the baby is your niece/nephew as opposed to a friends baby. Well, after I had a few days for the news of my new nephew to sink in, I ended up sending a lovely flower arrangement to their house. We're planning to visit them one weekend (they're interstate). Mum's heading over in a few weeks' time and sil is demanding she have the whooping cough vax. Mum is not staying at their house and she's only going to be there like 2 days! Thought about starting a thread in the general boards, but I'm terrified I'll be flamed!
Yay for Vegas!!

Welcome big blue, alana, lainey, zoe and pennyslane!

Hoping - you've been on the pill the last couple of weeks, no? Same here! Looks like we may be cycle buddies Has your fs told you when you're starting injections?

AFM - been on the pill for around 2 1/2 weeks now, just started the synarel nasal spray this morning. Jeez, it's vile stuff! Leaves the worst taste in your mouth Even after eating something, it doesn't quite go away. I have to have the spray for the next 3 weeks!
I also collected the whole array of drugs for this cycle - puregon, ovidrel, crinone and of course, synarel. DH & I drove home feeling pretty deflated, like a 'here we go again'. Since we're not likely to produce many frosties, I was toying with the idea of doing a 4th stim cycle (I originally decided my limit would be 3 + any frozen transfers), but, after the nurse visit and drug collection, 3 was definitely the limit! If this doesn't work, we're going to go to Hawaii for a much needed holiday and then return for one final roll of the dice.
To be honest, I'm now at the point where I really don't care if we have kids or not. I just want to get on with my life. We've had a glimpse into a childless lifestyle and we've proven it isn't the end of the world for us if it comes to this.
I know most of you have not even considered living child free so I don't mean to put a downer on things. It's just my mindset at the moment.

Hope you all have a great night...

[AmberSpark]

Not having fun with the list going to redo in another post

This post has been edited by Mish*J: 13/04/2012, 04:57 PM

[zoelicious]

Yay Friday is almost here, i cant wait til the weekend, im so over this.

amyc yay - excellent so i claim silver.

satay - i have an appointment with RI on the 10th of June. He wants to have a consult with me before I do another FET. which is fine by me, as i need a break from the steroids and the migraines! ill PM you as promised xx

emso - gut feeling hey. i get them every time i do a cycle. i always know its a BFN, so much so that i even start weaning myself of the meds before i even get to the blood test!

leebec, - i hear you. every woman i know gets it on the first go as well, i feel like posting a note on my forehead befriend me only if you are going to fall pregnant. Harsh but true, and it sux badly.

Scruff - Hawaii sounds great. I know you have heard this time and time again (i should listen to my own advice some time), try not to give up hope. Sometimes miracles do happen. We just need to keep going at it...

Since my BFN on Saturday i have been moping around with slouched shoulders and thinking to myself why, why, why. I have no tears left. I cant even manage a smile on my face any more, i cant even look at myself in the mirror, the person i see in there is not me.

Seriously us women, we must be stronger than we think we are, courageous, brave women.

I hope we all get our wish one day, it is just so unfair. Hi to everyone else i missed.

xx

This post has been edited by zoelicious: 12/04/2012, 09:13 PM