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Hi all

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Ali

[doctorseuss]

Gold!!!!!!

Yay for me. It's quiet here though.

A busy week with Sage - paeds check, she's gone from 25th to 95th percentile, I wonder if HG kept her small? After my OB check I had to go back into hospital today for a minor procedure but all is good now.

And 6 week unsettledness has arrived, no more 6 hour sleeps!

Good luck everyone.

[Camizebra]

Hello all, I am a 15 weeks pg HG sufferer and have been furiously reading your previous posts/threads. I am both super sorry to hear all of your terrible suffering and also relieved to know that I am not alone. I also love hearing the new bub stories where you are happy and have survived! Oh my goodness, those are the best stories. I am so worried that these feelings will carry over when bub is finally here...or that I am somehow stressing the wee one out with all my depression and anxiety.

I have never known such a black hole of desperation as with having HG. It's relentless. I started on Stemetil and then just in the past week or so transitioned to Ondansetron/Zofran, which has been a lifesaver. I do 8mg Ond and then 5gm Stem at about 6pm and 12am (or when I wake to pee). I noticed that a lot of you girls mention success with Ond so I am hoping that it really works for me. My worst times of the day are dinner time for some reason and the only food I can prepare is to pour cereal or chop a piece of fruit. It has been months of a vicious cycle of vomitting, unrelenting nausea and gagging. I can only stomach raw veggies for dinner and then wake starving/sick in the night. I feel like if only I could stomach some big meals I would feel so much calmer. I've noticed on the Ond that the serious fatigue I was getting on Stem has subsided, which is so nice, not to feel like a weird zombie all day. When I'm on Stem at night it comes back, but doesn't matter as it's night time. What I am so grateful for is that Ond allows me to finally drink water. I couldn't stomach drinking any at all before.

I have been to hospital on an IV several times, which was both awful and amazing - like a cool breeze through the body after being so dehydrated. I'm hoping on the Ond these visits will stop.

All of my life has gone to seed. No gym, walking, I don't see friends because my stomach is too tempermental and I'm exhausted. It's been a pretty sad old life. What is weird is that I have had time off work, but when I'm home and can't sleep it's like torture and I'd rather be anywhere else. I don't clean anymore or cook. It takes all the effort in the world just to wash my hair. This coming from a crazy obsessive and anal person. I think that's half my mental battle, knowing all the things I should/could/would be doing to have a happy and fulfilling life, but can't.

I have had the WORST thoughts about this poor baby, including regret and the wish that I would miscarry. Typing that brings tears to my eyes, but in moments of depression what can I say? My DH has been an absolute saint, I can't believe how much, trying to buoy me on my darkest days. I am so grateful words can't even express. I have no family help at all (very long story) so relying on him so completely has been a humbling experience.

OMG! So sorry that I have just unfurlled this thousand word rant out into the world! I guess I have had a lot of this stuff bottled up inside and once I got started, well, I couldn't stop.

Thank you so much for listening to my dark little story. I really hope the Ond works and I can start getting back to myself again. Or better yet the HG passes as I move through this pg.

I hope that everyone is going well and that I can one day offer support back to those in need of an ear to listen... xxox

[MrsNorthman]

hey there

First, many of us have had those thoughts, you're not alone. I wished for miscarriages every day with my 4 HG pregnancies You are not of sound mind! Dehydration and the sickness affect brain function which in turn affects mood stability, rationality...its awful

Glad zofran is workng - do you get it cheap from chemist warerhouse? The other you may want to try thaat many of us found helped is Restavit. Would give me 10hours of peace through the night.

Food wise, have you tried different soups? I found I could eat a chicken one successfully. I just would try anything that sounded even half good in my head. I even ate a chikko roll twice - salt was good

I hope it eases for you soon Camizebra

[tinkster23]

camizebra I think we've all been there, at some point.

It sucks, big time. Its the worst thing I've ever been through.

I'm just now at 16 weeks coming out of that haze, starting to have days where I'm only sick a couple of times and don't actually feel sick all the time and good god its amazing to not feel sick!

ondacetron wasn't a magic bullet for me, but getting a decent nights sleep (usually thanks to a dose of phenergan) makes a huge difference (waking up to spew was new to this pregnnacy, never did that with the other 2).

I also ate anything that seemed like a good idea, I'd quite often decide on three different things in the course of walking through the supermarket and then have to pick one when I got home.

It will pass. thats the only thing that got me through (that, and that I NEVER have to do this again).

This post has been edited by tinkster23: 04/04/2012, 06:03 PM

[doctorseuss]

Hi girls,
How are you all? Sorry to hear you are suffering camizebra. I felt the same way about this baby, wishing for miscarriage. How awful!! Now I am totally in love with her and she is a joy, a calm relaxed baby. It will pass. There is nothing to like about pregnancy with HG, just get as much treatment as you can, and count down the days. It will pass.

For the evenings you could try a second zofran (I would have it about 5pm so I could eat dinner) or restavit / phenergan (about 8pm for me as it made me sooo drowsy). Acupuncture also helped for me (and I am not the type to do alternative medicine but it really helped).

I found going to work each day helpful just to take my mind off the illness, but if I vomited a lot would come home early. There is no one right way to do it. Talking about the baby or other babies was the only thing that made me happy, focussing on the end point.

Good luck, you will survive.

Glad things are getting better for you Tinkster.

[doctorseuss]

Forgot to tell you how Sage is going - she's thriving!! 5.7kg already, which is 97th percentile. She's growing out of 000 clothes and wakes only oncemostnights (but 3 times last night - yawn). She is chubby and beautiful like DD1, and calm and happy. I feel so wonderful now that it's just sleep deprivation I am dealing with, and can eat what I like. Everone tells me how good i look now, I think because weight gain is minimal, my skin and hair are still glowing, and I'm not green with nausea. And I'm smiling!!!

[tinkster23]

New low. For only the second time in three hyeperemesis pregnancies I didn't make the toilet. Spewed all over the toilet wall, floor. Spewed hard enought to wet myself, my eyes watering, coughing up blood, broken capillaries all over my face.


Yay.

Best part, I got to clean it all up as well. .

Remind me again why this is worth it.

[Camizebra]

Oh girls, thanks for all your replies. Even though I am sad that others have had to go through this, I am happy that I am not alone. I have been feeling more human on the Ondansetron thank goodness. I still vomit some mornings and gag a fair bit, but the nausea is becoming more manageable. Now, it's time to try build up my energy and motivation and get life back to some order. I really hope this lasts and I don't build up a tolerance to the Ond.

mrsnorthman Thanks for the Chem Warehouse tip. I currently only have scripts for 4 tablets and it costs me about $35 and I get most of it back from private health. I will definitely have to check it out, as well as this Restavit. I will definitely ask my ob. Thanks also for the soup tip. I've got to try everything at least once. It's so funny how one day something is okay and then the next it's like poison. Damn hg...we've probably never been so challenged when it comes to something we all take for granted like 3 square meals a day.

Tinkster23 Oh no, I am so sorry to hear it. Hg is literally the worst. So unforgiving and relentless. I'm really sorry that medication doesn't really seem to work for you. I don't know how you've done it two previous times but you have and you made it, somehow. I wish I knew the answers...

doctorseuss Oh wow, I just love hearing your happy baby Sage stories. So comforting that she is a happy and thriving, relaxed baby. Joy x 10,000,000.

[bettymm]

Hi everyone,

been ages since i had a look here!!

Doctor seuss ..so glad to hear how well baby Sage is doing My little Noelle is also a very calm happy easy baby, chubby too! she sleeps quite well at night, she goes down about 8pm and then wakes at 4.30am for a feed then back down til 6 am ish , feed, then in the bed with me snacking while i keep sleeping til 8am. Only cat naps int he day, but she stays pretty happy tho.

Tinkster.. Its awful when you miss the toilet i remember doing that last pregnancy... i disticntly remember my 2 yr old was watching Roary the Racing Car and i had the most sudden urge to spew ever! got up to race to the loo and ended up spewing all over the carpet of the lounge room, bedroom . then had to clean it up. Poor DD was trying to help me. Awful yucky times. hugs to you. It will pass!!!

Camizebra..

We all know how you feel. Its a constant mental battle as well as a physical one with HG. your life basically just comes to a hault for those months and you start to think "why did i do this???" i remember just looking in the mirror at this grey face looking back at me, gaunt, unwashed /brushed hair thinking..will i ever be "glowing"? . Its normal to feel that way. Dont worry about the feelings transferring to the baby, once you meet him/her you will melt.

Keep up with the fluids and whatever you can stomach as best you can. Little bites of whatever you feel like.


Hope it eases soon

This post has been edited by bettymm: 06/04/2012, 07:10 PM