[brontie]

Ok,

Im scared OMG I am scared... I cant wait to meet this baby but oh I miss my other baby sooo much, why oh why did he have to be so sick, why couldnt I have him to take home.

Im sitting and waiting to have this baby (any day), and i am excited and ready and really really want him.. So many people have asked are you scared, excited.. I have felt pretty emotionless about it, just ready till this morning, I have tears and they wont stop..

A midwife told me I need to "let go" to help go into labour, but ummm its hard when you dont know what you are letting go of "as such".

Please tell me it gets easier.

BTW 1st anniversary is coming up just before easter.

[NicoleTQLD]

I couldn't read and not post. I too am pregnant with another bub after my DD was born last year at 20 weeks. Yesterday was her birth/death day and me again being 20 weeks preg at the moment made it quite surreal. I'm feeling a huge sense of release now that we have survived the first year, almost like I can breath again.

I don't really have any advice because I too am yet to deliver but I just wanted to wish you all the best and I really hope your birth goes well and your little one is born safe and healthy. Perhaps just let the tears flow? You have been on such an emotional roller coaster that it may be your body's way of "letting go" as your midwife says? Now that you are at the end of a pregnancy that this time will result in a baby you can keep, your body may be responding to that?
It is soooo understandable to be scared after what you have been through! Remember this new baby doesn't replace your other child, but becomes another addition to your family, and you have every right to continue to grieve for your first son while welcoming your new bub. I honestly don't know if it gets any easier, I wish I could tell you it did!! You're in my thoughts and I hope it truly goes well for you.

Not sure if I've been of any help, but I hope so!

Nicole

[misslizzie]

i truly wish you all the best for this birth, and i am truly sorry you have to go through what you are going through although i wish you all the best and hope you are able to relax a bit before the birth because as the midwife said it may make the labor easy for you.

i have no experience to talk from although hope it all goes well.

[brontie]

thanks for the support..

I went out and bought a "present" from this baby for his grave.. Not sure if I wait till he's here to lay the ornament or to do it before hand.

[ani1]

Just wanted to say good luck and what you are feeling is completely normal and valid given what you have previously been through