[*mylittleprince*]

Oh my gosh, what a terrible experience. I'm sorry that you didn't have the birth that you dreamed of. I think it's a good idea to get your birth notes and speak to an independent midwife and/or counsellor. Hope you feel better soon. xxx

[wallofdodo]

I am sorry that happened to you. I hope you are getting some councelling. Don't try to just get on with it. It will catch up with you.

Take care.

[ThatsNotMyName]

Oh no Prue, I'm so sorry you had to go through such an awful experience. Please see someone about debriefing what you went through, birth trauma is a terrible thing but it's something you don't have to handle alone.

I hope your boys are doing well and that motherhood is treating you well

[Amanda_R]

Gah, I'm so sorry Prue. I managed to hold off crying until the last line, I know that feeling. Keep talking about it, hopefully it helps over time. I wish I had, now I can't.

I hope you and your boys and your husband are all doing great, I'm sure the boys are an absolutely gorgeous pair.

[CountMyStars]

i hope having written about it makes you feel a bit better.

[onehappymum]

that is dreadful! I didn't think there were any hospitals around like that anymore and am sad and disappointed to hear that there are. It sounds like the way they treated you is ingrained into their culture. Maybe when you feel better and are up to it you could write to them and copy in some higher authority (Health Minister, hospital board, I'm not sure who else) so hopefully change can be brought about that prevents that happening in the future.

I'm so pleased to hear that you have two healthy boys to take home. I've been checking back here *almost* daily since your last post to hear how you & your babies were going. I'll add my voice to the other EBers who have already said don't suffer alone, get help and talk about it. Birth trauma and PND (which I went through for 12mths with no help - I didn't realise the anxiety and panic attacks and associated physical complaints - I thought I was going die - were PND, so I sucked it up and just got on with things, which did not improved either my physical or mental health - all good now tho) can be debilitating, you don't have to do it alone and healing will be easier with help.

[prue~c]

I always feel like all I do is complain in this blog, but honestly, I never expected the boys' birth to be so dramatic. I think the main problem is the lack of communication from the hospital - both during and after the event, and that the model of care I had specifically chosen was completely dropped once I had changed hospitals.


KTB65 I fully support homebirth but homebirthing 31 week twins was just not an option, for obvious reasons. But I remember telling my husband that if we were to ever have another child, I would seriously consider a home birth.

[G+2]

I'm sorry that you had to experience their birth that way, I'm glad the boys are doing well though.

You're at your most vulnerable during childbirth, I found. I don't think I've ever felt so like I had no control over the situation during the prep, c/s and recovery during the birth of my twins. My experience wasn't as traumatic as yours by a long stretch, but I can relate to the confusion and wanting a straight or consistent answer.

Wishing you all the best.

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[CupcakeMonster]

Gosh prue, you poor thing. I've followed your blog for ages now and I cannot believe the trauma that you had to go thru. Was it not enough for you to have to endure multiple ivf treatments?
I hope that one day you get answers and some closure.
How are the boys?

[Rocket]

It's good that you have such a public outlet for your story. I had no physical trauma from DD's birth but the ineptitude I encountered was insane and when I put a formal complaint in it went nowhere.

So glad your boys are powering.