[yodie86]

Hi Everyone,

On the 26th January my mum was admitted to hospital with suspected Lung Cancer. They were finally able to do the biopsy last week and the results came back that she has stage 4 small cell cancer that has already metastasized to her brain ( the Prof stopped counting at 20 but said there could be up to 35 in her brain).

I spoke to the Dr on Tuesday and got the official diagnosis and they told me that they were releasing mum into the hospice as treatment is not an option for her as the cancer is too far advanced.

Every day when I go and see her she is less and less like the mum I know and love and it is breaking my heart.

I guess the thing that is bothering me the most is I feel numb. It's like my brain knows and understands what is happening but has not allowed my emotions to get a hold yet. I have cried a tiny little bit and sometimes get teary but otherwise its on with another day.

I guess this is normal and I know in myself that when mum dies that it will all hit me like a tonne of bricks. I guess there is nothing left to do but wait and spend as much time with her as I can.

I wish you all the very best on your journeys xx

[Lil Chickens]

I am so sorry to read your mum's diagnosis. I hope you can make the most of the time have left with your mum.

My thoughts are with you.

[MissNess]

I'm so sorry about your mum. At least you can hold it together which would be a whole lot better than being overwhelmed and unable to cope with seeing her while she is still with you.

I really hope that this doesn't become any more difficult for you and your family.

Just hold on to the good times you've had and don't focus on the differences you can notice now.

[Chelli]

I am sorry to hear your news Just take it one day at a time and I hope you are surrounded with lots of love and support.

[**Anna**]

I am so sorry.

[great8]

I am so, so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

My Mum was diagnosed with the same, small cell lung cancer with brain mets in October last year.

It is such a horrible thing to watch your Mum go through, I still feel numb almost four months after Mum was diagnosed. Such a painful time for your Mum, yourself and your family.

If there is anything that I can do, please PM me.

I wish you Mum a peaceful journey.

[packysmum]

I'm so sorry about yr mum. I know what u are going through and how u feel. My mum was diagnosed on 21st January with non-small cell lung cancer stage 4, it's gone to the bones 6 places and to the adrenal gland.
I can understand how you are feeling and the numbness feeling. I cried a lot for the first week or so, but now everyone is commented on how they don't know how I'm keeping it together. I haven't had a good cry in about 2 weeks.
I guess we all cope with it differently....I'm here if u need a chat, sounds like we are both in for a hard road ahead of us

[silverstreak]

I don't belong in this forum, but I just wanted to say I'm sorry about your mum.

[AnnBB]

Oh OP, I am so sorry . Watching and supporting loved ones battle cancer is the hardest things I have ever had to do. It is simply heartbreaking. All the best to you both.

[Sofia*]

You are absolutely right - spend as much time with your mum as you can, that's all you can do now.
And that's the thing that will mean the most to her.

I lost my mum about 18 months ago, after 8 years battling melanoma and assorted secondary cancers and the final 3 months in and out of hospice.
It was a terribly hard time, the only way I coped was to just keep going through the motions of evryday life, and to be there for her and my dad as much as I could while trying to fit in work as well (tricky because she was three hours drive away).

Wishing you all the strength and courage you'll need to get through this time, just being there and holding her hand is a wonderful gift.

(edited to make more sense!)

This post has been edited by Rubybelle: 14/02/2013, 04:25 PM