[tryingforanother]

Hi,

I have had surgery and have been advised it is impossible to get pregnant naturally due to damaged tubes from a burst appendix, so we will be trying IVF in 2013.


However....each month, even though I know in my head that it's not possible, my heart tells me just maybe they were wrong, maybe I could get pregnant. I just want it so badly. And each month I am devastated all over again when my period arrives.


I am on CD31. TMI warning - I usually get a couple of days of brown spotting before my period shows up on CD29 but so far nothing. I have a VERY regular cycle with each cycle length of 29-30 days. So, it's a couple of days later than normal, and now I'm driving myself crazy convincing myself I could be pregnant, when I know logically I will probably wake up tomorrow with AF. Can't even do pregnancy test until Monday when I can get to a pharmacy!


Aagh, I hate this waiting game each month. Why can't I just be realistic and accept that it's not going to happen!



Sorry this is more of a vent than anything else. Just needed to get it out.

[pinkcupcakes]

op, i in no way can know what you must be going through every month. however, when ttc for our 2nd, it took 8 months ( i know, its nothing compared to so many women. but dd happened straight away, so it was a long time for me.) and i remember feeling that way every month. i knew in my head that it probably wasnt so, and i would try not to try and conceive, but it was all i could think about. i understand that you're in a more complicated situation than i was and i dont mean to come across as insincere. i really, truly hope something sticks for you. please update when you find out.

This post has been edited by pinkcupcakes: 08/12/2012, 11:40 PM

[HappyLife]

OP - I can understand where you're coming from thinking that. I am pretty regular with my cycles, usually a cycle of 28 or 29 days, but last month I got to CD 31 without spotting, so rushed to supermarket to buy a FRER. BFN of course, & AF arrived the next day!

We've only just started TTC, so felt a bit silly, but I think we all go through it. It's impossible to try & not read into every little difference in our bodies when we're wanting to be UTD!

Not sure how badly damaged your tubes are, but miracles can happen - that eggy may be desperate to get out - but I'd wait a few more days if you can possibly stand it, & if AF still hasn't come, test, test, test!! (& let us know!!!)

If no luck, I wish you all the best on your IVF journey

[tryingforanother]

Still nothing his morning! I'm not testing for another couple of days. All logic says AF is just late but it will come eventually.

[soontobegran]

I don't think too much is impossible OP so lots of good wishes coming your way.

I have looked after many women in your position who have conceived naturally when they've been told there was no way.
One lady I remember had one tube and one very polycystic ovary but they were on opposite sides and she conceived.
Somehow she ovulated and the egg migrated over to the other side of her pelvis and popped into the tube over there....chances of that happening are remote but it did happen

Fingers crossed, please let us know how you go.

[knottygirl]

so many people get told they can never have kids naturally and do.

i knew a woman who lost one tube, had the other one tied and STILL got pregnant.

Fingers crossed for you OP.

[tryingforanother]

BFN :-(


So annoyed at myself and my body for getting my hopes up!

[SensibleSis]

Oh no.

Sorry to hear that.

[blueynat]

OP dont give up hope on having a child naturally. I have a friend that has damaged tubes from a burst appendix and was told she would never have children at all. It took her many yrs of accepting she would never have a child but eventually conceived naturally and since then has had 2 children naturally. So dont give up

[Froyo]

It's not a matter of the OP giving up, but of making things mentally easier on herself. I know people are trying to help with the "I know someone who..." stories but honestly IME they DON'T help. Her situation is her own.

Yes, nothing is impossible- but the OP needs to find a way to not keep repeating this devastation each cycle.

OP I know exactly how you feel, I got to a stage where it became a little easier but honestly it took a LOT of determination to not keep falling back into that pattern. Stop tracking your cycles. I know it's hard, having TTC for so many years it was a real effort to get out of that mindset. Find something else (hobby you enjoy) to focus on.