[sigh]

I'm another who could have written that post. I don't know if I can help but I've had/got anxiety (I'm not sure it really ever goes away it's just not affecting me or it's bad, or somewhere in between). I found moodgym (run through the ANU) works for me because I can do it privately, I don't have to take time out to go and see someone (and pay to cry in someone's office).

Money is a big issue. I just wish I was someone who had luxuries to cut back on but we don't. Lunches always from home, family members caring for DD for free, we never go out, shopping is literally groceries and the rest is just bills; but we always seem to end up with a high credit card bill. I actually think groceries must have gone up that much along with our mortgage rate. I have part time work which is permanent (thank god) and DH is full time. I just keep wishing that we'll win lotto (not that I can afford to buy tickets) to pay off the house. DH and I are arguing. Both of us were just screaming at each other the night before my 12 week scan this week because of the stress of it (after a scare at 10 weeks, previous miscarriages and this being a natural pregnancy not ivf like DD; it feels less secure which is insane). It's all ok, but we owe a little money to relatives and I can't see when we're going to be able to pay it back. I know we won't break up, after all the stress and grief of two miscarriages together didn't break us. But it's still not good and I feel dreadful that DD went and hid in the bedroom when we were yelling.

There are some days, with my anxiety at this pregnancy, where DD and I just sit and watch tv. I feel bad for not doing more for her but some days I just can't manage much else. I'm tired, DD is not a great sleeper and neither am I.

So there you are, not helpful just "I get it and I'm in the same place". I'm sorry you are feeling like this too but thanks for bringing it up, I feel a bit better because it's not just me.

[Pooks*potters]

Pobody's Nerfect.

Actually OP it sounds like you're doing an amazing job. There are bad parents out their, you're not one of them.

Anxiety SUCKS and I hope you get some relief from it soon. I'm getting help at the moment and it's making a difference, slowly, but I see hope which I didn't before, and I just want you to know that it's possible to feel better.

I know I don't know you but I'm sending you a hug anyway

[Tea~for~two]

Oh, honey - you are not a bad mother at all!! You have so much going on and you're trying to hold it all together!

I've suffered from anxiety too and please believe me that it is treatable and it doesn't make you a bad mother!

Please get help now before bub is born!

[Natttmumm]

Sounds like the anxiety is getting the better of you and making it so you cant enjoy this time. One thing I have learnt (and I suffer anxiety/ panic too) is that the things I worry myself sick about are not the things that happen in life. I think if you can get the anxiety under control you will be a lot better. Could you try for a few more days in daycare for DS while you get on top of things? I had anxiety when DD 1 was 3 and DD2 was 1 - not really sure why it hit then but I felt totally overwhelmed and worried about everything so much so that the year just seemed like I only just kept my head above water. Looking back now im not even sure I felt that but some of it was that I was juggling 2 toddlers, work, household stuff, money etc and I didnt have enough time to do anything properly. I have simplified things where I work 3 days and kids are in care those days and the days at home I focus on the kids