Cycle #1 IVF/ICSI

We have officially started TTC #4

CD1 started on 12/7/11
CD2 started injecting Gonal F at 225IU per day.

So far i have had severe headache/migraines and nausea which started on CD3. I hope they dont last too long.
i am excited and nervous..after all the talking and appointments ect we are finally on our way. I could be UTD in just a few weeks. OMG

CD12: 23/7/11 Well im officially Choca's with follies acording to the FS doing my ultrasound. Lost count after 20 but had quite a few different various sizes.(largest was 25mm down to 12mm) However not doing so well on the pain factor. My poor ovaries feel like they are going burst open any moment. My tummy looks like i am 6 months pregnant and i can only wear loose clothing. I have been put into the risk catagory for OHSS so instead of having an EPU today the FS has decided to "Coast" me over the weekend and do an EPU on Monday ( i hope). So have stopped Gonal F but am still doing Orgalutran. Then trigger tonite.

Hopefully i will bypass the OHSS and be able to do a 5day blast transfer if we get enough embies..

My what a difference a day or two makes.

CD14: Went in to have my EPU. They admitteded me and took me upstairs to get changed. We spoke with the Embryologist who showed us in diaphrams what would happen to our embie once the ICSI was performed. They took my DP away to do his sample and I was taken into theatre soon after. They gave me a needle in the back of the hand and i started to drift off to sleep a little. Only thing was that i wasnt quite under and was aware of most of the things going on around me including the ultrasound and needle aspiration. It was quite painful and i could feel the pressure and the poking and the changing sides. It was bizare.

After the procedure i was taken into recovery where i came back to life with in 10-15 mins after. Everything had gone well and i had given up 12 good eggs to work with. A few more where aspirated but were over cooked and a few where imature. So 12 was a good number.

While i was waiting for DP to come up and sit with me the embryologist came in and spoke to me. My world fell apart right there and then on spot. I wasn't prepared for her next words. Of all the possible outcomes in my head for things going wrong mainly the risk of me having OHSS and having to cancel the cycle I was blown away by her words.

"Im sorry to have to tell you that we are unable to perform the ICSI procedure as there was no sperm found in your partners sample", there was nothing at all."

We had a low sperm count, this we knew but it wasnt that bad, just that at our age it would take quite a while to fall naturally if we could at all. That is why we are doing the IVF instead of having the tubal reversal in the first place. The look on my partners face when they brought him in was gut wrenching.. He was so upset as was i and all I could do was burt into tears. I wish i could have been stronger and supported him better.

So what happens now?????

My clinic contacted me today on CD15 as directed by my FS and my DP is to see a Urologist and get checked out with the hope that he can still produce a sample up the track or they go in and do a sperm aspiration. We need to first find out why we went from over a 6 mill count to zero in less than 5 months.

So my eggs got put on ice and only 9 of them where suitable to be frozen.

So i guess we wait and see where the next chapter of this journey is going to take us....