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Surviving Suicide: Nut's story
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Posted 08 April 2011 - 09:05 AM
Nic, I know what a hole in your life and your families lives Lothar left when he took his own life. My heart breaks for you all and I wish I could take away your pain. I know how much you and your family miss him. Thank you for sharing your story, if it helps one person or inspires them to either get help or help a loved one, your job is done! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Posted 08 April 2011 - 11:09 AM
That was painfully sad. I'm so sorry for the loss of your brother
Posted 08 April 2011 - 11:19 AM
My sister committed suicide 10 years ago this October. She was 20.
Nut - what a painfully moving and honest account of your brother's tragic death. There are so many things I can relate to in this story, the what ifs, the subtle signs you missed, the time you should have spoken up but didn't want to offend, the regret and most of all, the heartbreak that never goes away.
I hope and pray that your dear brother is at peace.
Posted 08 April 2011 - 11:29 AM
Nic, thank you so much for sharing your story. It truly makes you realise how important it is to always hold your loved ones close.
To both you and Ev, i'm so sorry for the loss of your brother & son. Sending you strength & love.
Posted 08 April 2011 - 11:48 AM
Hi Nut. I'm sorry beyond words that you and your family have suffered such a loss.
Posted 08 April 2011 - 03:33 PM
I am so sorry for your families loss but thank you for telling us his story, as I feel it is an important one for everyone out there.
Posted 08 April 2011 - 04:00 PM
I can't thank you enough for writing about your brother. I am suffering from depressions myself, and it means so much for me to feel that other people get more aware about this desease. There is still so much stigma in society about having depressions. I am so glad for you to find his message on the mirror, I get goosbumps just writing this. I am not sure if you ever question this but be assured he loved you dearly and that he took his own life had nothing to do with not loving his family deeply but everything with being in a dark and lonely place and not knowing how to take those feelings any longer. Everything just seams so hopeless in those dark moments, so unbearable.
I like to thank you for pointing out the photo issue. I myself refuse to get my photo taken very often because I don't like the way I look. But having read your words changed my thoughts and I will make sure in the future to leave lots of memories behind for my daughter and husband and anybody else who loves me.
If you feel you want to make sense out of your loss and honour your brothers life (not that you could ever malke sense of a suicide, I know) , then please spread your message. There are so many of us out there with depressions who need more acceptance in society and yes, even their own families and friends. It could make all the difference.
Sending you lots of love, Stefanie
Edited by *Steffi*, 08 April 2011 - 04:08 PM.
Posted 08 April 2011 - 08:08 PM
Thank you so much for sharing your story Nic, and I'm so very sorry for your terrible loss.
I lost my sister three years ago after she took her life while under the influence of a powerful sleep medication. It is the worst thing that has ever happened to each of the members of our family, and something that we have to live with every day, so I can understand how devastated you must be by the loss of your brother.
I am sure your story will help others.
Posted 09 April 2011 - 08:56 AM
Thank you for sharing that part of your life with us.. it's so terribly sad but so beautifully articulated.. im sorry if that is not the right word.. its the only word that stood out.. the love you have, the pain youve all suffered, the awareness and change that you have influenced in my life, that is a part of yours.. your story so honest and moving.. im so sorry for the loss of your brother, your parents son.. there are no words.. but thank you to you.. on so many levels.. you are an inspriration.
Lothar, rest in peace.
Posted 09 April 2011 - 10:40 AM
Thanks for sharing your story. Once again Im sorry for your loss and your family's loss. RIP Lothar. What may have taken your brother days only of planning takes years and years of mental processing. Im so glad your sister found the Sorry written on the mirror. You can only know without any doubt he didnt want to cause you pain he was obviously sick of his own suffering that he didnt want to carry the burden any longer. Getting help for mental health problems is still daunting for some and as soon as all the stigmas associated with suffering from conditions such as depression are gone people will avoid getting help and as a result all of us lose out because we lose life and the significant contributions these often deep feeling and intelligent beings may have made.
Take care Nic
Posted 09 April 2011 - 10:55 AM
I think that is part of the problem. People can admit to having liver disease or blood pressure problems. It's not unacceptable to have cancer or or parkinsons. But depression is misunderstood. So many do not seek help and so many do not understand that it is a disease, not just a state of mind that people can snap out of. An invisible cancer that grows and left untreated may well kill you.
Posted 10 April 2011 - 09:22 AM
Nut and *Ev, thank you for sharing your story.
My thoughts are with you.
It is such a sad and important story.
Well done for writing it Nut, it would have been hard to do it, but I am sure that there will be many who will benefit. thank you
Posted 10 April 2011 - 10:19 AM
Thank you for sharing your story Nut and *Ev. I cannot imagine what you and your family went through and go through but I hope that sharing the story of Lothar helped the healing just a little bit.
Posted 10 April 2011 - 01:03 PM
Nut, I am so sorry for you and your family's loss. It is so tragic when somebody takes thier own life. You wrote your story so beautifully. And I truly hope hope your message hits home with everyone. I for one will be trying very hard NOT to forget to take those photos. Because they are precious memories.
Posted 11 April 2011 - 03:50 PM
Nut, I am so sorry for the loss of your dear brother. May he be at peace now. Thank you for sharing your story.
Posted 13 April 2011 - 01:27 PM
Thank you for your story and strength and love to you and your family in a very difficult time.
I was 25 when I found my husband who had suicided (he was 36). I'm now (nearly 45) and with time it does get better, but there needs to be more awareness about this and of course our mental health issues.
20 years ago - like miscarriage as a topic - it's all "taboo".... there are more suicides than there are road fatalities in more years than not, and unfortunately it's the "survivors" that pick up the devasting pieces.
With the events that took place in my life 20 years ago, they have certainly shaped and in some areas, changed my outlook on life, and yes my house is literally FILLED with photographs of family, friends and loved ones.
Posted 13 April 2011 - 01:43 PM
Oh Nut I am so sorry for your loss. I am also sorry that your dear brother was unknowingly in such a bad place that he saw suicide as his only option out.
My love to you and your family
ETA: SportySpice my heart goes out to you too
Edited by **Xena**, 13 April 2011 - 01:44 PM.
Posted 13 April 2011 - 01:59 PM
So sorry for your loss Nut!
Love and hugs to you & your family!
Posted 14 April 2011 - 05:22 AM
I cried reading your story about your beautiful brother. I have suffered depression and the symptons of withrawal from family events etc.., having no joy in life anymore, no energy, your spirit of living has been really beaten down, unbearable loneliness and hopelessness are so real. I am okay now, i happen to come accross a fantastic counsellor when i was 36yrs old,(i am 43yrs old now) i am on no medication as he doesnt feel i need it, i continually see him to this day to keep on top of my depression, its just so wonderful to have someone like my counsellor that i can off load too (that isnt family or friends) that you can just be you, warts, thoughts and all, and coming out of a session feeling on top of the world. The signs your brother showed is what i felt and you are right when you said you could of caught up with him more for coffee etc because thats what i would of wanted more of when i was going through my stuff but unfortunately i didnt know how to ask for my time and attention from family or friends? Also the bit about your brother was so generous, giving, kind and loving (thats how i was) our hearts sometimes are to big and thats not always a good thing because we always feel empty inside, we may have all the great family and friends around us, no financial problems, great job, great life etc...but inside of us we are empty and what i learnt is that i had to fill the inside up in myself. Slowly i learnt to put myself first (before that i was putting everyone else first and forgetting about me) there were lots of things i had to re learn and finally i pulled myself out of this black hole but as i said i continually see my counsellor every few months to keep on top of it,Its a life long battle.
Posted 16 April 2011 - 02:15 PM
Oh Nut, I'm so sorry for the loss of your brother.
I know that your story will help many people though. Thank you for sharing.
Posted 19 April 2011 - 12:06 PM
Thanks for sharing, sorry for your loss Your story has made me realise I don't have enough family photos.
Posted 22 April 2011 - 01:48 PM
I am sorry for you/your family's loss. Thanks for sharing such an important issue. I've also battled depression (mostly in silence) and I too lost a brother (just over 3 years ago now) to suicide.
Posted 22 April 2011 - 05:16 PM
I am sorry for your family's loss Nut. Thank goodness you were/are a close family and you have such wonderful memories. To all others who have posted that are suffering from depression and/or have lost a loved one my heart also goes out to you. Take care.
Posted 22 April 2011 - 07:04 PM
Thank you for sharing.
Depression is a horrible beast and I am so sorry for your loss.
Posted 25 April 2011 - 03:52 PM
Very sorry for the loss of your brother Nut, so sad that you and your family have to bear this loss. Thank you for sharing, it's a big flag for us all.
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