Some of you already know my back-story. I am sorry I just can't repeat it all here as I am so exhausted over it all. In short, DH is supposed to be moving out after we cannot live together anymore and have no feelings for each other anymore (and haven't for a long while). I am so depressed now I am not sure who to turn to.
So he said he was moving out and applied for a couple of houses. But in the meantime he is still here, at home, with me and the kids. He doesn't talk to me about it or anything really. Just exists in the same house. He is cold yet still seems to expect me to cook and clean up after him. He also hasn't discussed the plans of what will happen- or what is happening (ie- who takes what, how often he will see the kids etc). I need to apply for single parenting payment and I need to sort my own sh*t out- which I can't with him here. I don't know when he's going, where he's going etc. At first when he said he was definately going (as this situation has been happening the last 3 years) I of course didn't believe him as I'd heard it all before and was sick of it but then he mentioned that he called child support about how much money he would need to pay. Apart from that he has made no effort, in my mind, to take forward steps.
So fast forward to today- DS is having a really hard time at school in a new class (separate issue from home- or is it?) and I don't know why. He's having such a hard time that his behaviour is uncontrollable at home and he doesn't want to go back to school. And I just don't have the strength to cope with any of this. But earlier this evening DH and I we have yet another argument (about DS) and he storms out the house (again) after I say "I've had enough of this"- which I totally have.
I feel unloved and uncared for. It's like that highschool romance all over again.
I want to be able to start my new life. I just can't "up and move" from here right now but it's not fair that I feel like I have to- as there are no other choices. The time and effort and heartache it would take to move house would be enormous. Anyway, I made mention to DS tonight that we may need to look at moving and he sobbed (he never cries). Stupid thing to talk to a 6 year old about, I know. Add it to the list of my parenting fails
So, I'm not coping. And do not know who to turn to. I think DH should go and should do so as soon as possible so that I can try and piece together any piece of my horrible and broken life
Edited- always spelling!
Edited by bryce's-mummy, 12 February 2013 - 09:57 PM.