this is me right now
long back story, TTC #1 for 2 years, and 5 pregnancies in that time, none stuck.
this month I didnt much like my chances. I posted a vent 2 weeks ago about being tired and sick and grumpy and not wanting to DTD. Only managed it twice all month.
started testing last week at about 23 days into cycle. dont know exactly when I O'd but thought about day 14 which is usual for me. My cycles are regular 28/29 days. All my other pregnancies I've had definite symptoms and positive tests really early - I think my earliest was day 23. Tested a couple of times a day from day 23 to 26 then gave up. decided definitely negative then and promptly went out to celebrate/commiserate and had a fair bit to drink. tested again day 28, still neg. ran out of tests and gave up anyway. cant tell you how 'non pregnant' I feel., and on top of all the neg tests, lack of symptoms and lack of DTD this month...well....Anyway get to day 31 today and think hmm thats weird. Buy a test on the way home from work....and get a BFP !
cant get excited, just think there must be some mistake. also really worried as since I 'knew' I wasnt pregnant this month I've been drinking wine, eating soft cheese, and eating ham and salami like crazy!! Normally I avoid all that stuff for all of the 2ww....I've even been drinking de-caff coffee for the last 2 weeks...except for the last few days when I've been back to strong coffee and loving it!
I feel terrible...could this be the long awaited BFP? No point getting excited but am also really worried about how bad Ive been after being so careful for so long :-(
should I be excited? Could the BFP be a mistake? Line was faint but definitely there. DH spotted it from a few metres away!
help am going crazy...
thanks for reading this turned into a bit of a rant!
Edited by maryanneK, 10 February 2013 - 10:49 AM.